Everyone has been super amazing
about my partner and I getting married. I’ve
been thrilled at how even my more conservative or religious friends and
family have taken it in stride (e.g. both my great aunt and Fiance’s grandma, awesome ladies in their
80s, said the exact same thing, “Well, if that’s what they
want to do, that sounds nice”).
But with the
amazingness and the well-meaning support has come a realization that
people think my wedding will be somehow totally different from a "regular" wedding because it’s “gay.”
People have sent me links to how to plan the perfect lesbian wedding. They
have commented that they would love to help me plan, but that I would have to
tell them what to do because I am the expert on gay marriage. There are books in the bookstore for planning
a gay marriage. Separate websites for the gays. A whole wedding industrial complex just for “us.” I’ve also gotten
links to “The Offbeat Bride” and other “different” wedding sites, partly
because I am just a different kinda lady, but I think also because it is
assumed my wedding will be innately different because of the whole two-girl
thing.
If you have sent me these links and
resources or offered to help me out: THANK YOU!
I have no idea what I’m doing, and every bit of assistance is beautiful
and appreciated! I love you and your
good heart!
But all this has got me to thinking
about a few things.
I'm Not Actually an Expert
on Gay Marriage
I wanna be a family law attorney, so I know a
little gay marriage law, which in Georgia currently consists of, “May I help
you write a domestic partnership agreement until you can go somewhere else to
get legalized?” Other than that, I’ve
never actually been to a wedding between two people of the same sex or
gender. I only know one or two couples who have been “gay married.” Most
importantly, I’ve never planned a wedding before, gay or otherwise. Not an expert.
I'm Not Really a Lesbian*
While I have many of the stereotypical cultural indicators of
being a lesbian (e.g. I like the Indigo Girls, am a feminist, drive a Subaru,
and have a girlfriend), I have dated and lived with and loved far too many men
to feel comfortable identifying as one myself. So, I guess I’m not really having a lesbian wedding....
Family Dynamics are Important to Me
Like I said above, everyone
has been super amazing about my partner and I getting married. They are going to come to our wedding and be
so happy for us because they love us.
But that doesn’t make the idea of two women getting married any less
weird for people who grew up with a different conception of what marriage looks
like. I want my religious or
conservative or just surprised family members and friends to have as good a
time at my wedding as my atheist or liberal or gay guests. For that reason, I probably wouldn’t have a
burlesque-themed wedding with pole dancers in the corner. They would still come
because they love me, but they would be super-uncomfortable.
In the same way, since I’m already
asking some of my people to reset their brains and get on board with something
new to them, I’m not going to purposely throw up other roadblocks. Fiancé and I are going to do things that are
really important to us (e.g. she wouldn't be caught dead in a dress, there
will be two girls kissing at the end of the ceremony, and both sides of the
aisle will be “the bride’s side”) that might freak some people out because they
have never seen it before. I know that, and they know that coming in, and we will all make it through together. But I probably won’t have a rainbow theme
or vagina-pops for favors (yum!!!) because why push the envelope on a day that,
even in traditional, straight, church weddings, is already full of stressful
family drama and politicking (WHAT?!?!
You didn’t wear the veil that every woman in your family has gotten
married in in the last 200 years?!?!!
DRAMA!!!!)?
I'm Not Trying to Make a Political Statement With my Marriage
Weddings are too complicated and stressful without the added pressure of representing a political movement. Gay marriage has become
a political rallying point, but I don’t actually see my wedding as a political act.
Or maybe I do, but differently. I kind
of like the idea of having a traditional, white-dress, wedding-cake,
DJ-playing-YMCA, you-may-now-kiss-the-bride wedding, only the people getting
married are both girls. It doesn’t have
to be a big deal because, well, it shouldn’t be. And when it stops being “off-beat” or “a
political act” or “different” and when “gay married” gets to just be “married”
without the descriptor, then I guess we will have really won.
*I'm totally happy to have this discussion with anyone who has polite questions to ask about it. Just might not do it online.